With Suns and Moons and Stars All Over the Place

What I need to remember is that I had a whole world, an entire universe before this past decade.----With a lover/best friend, wonderful dogs, gardens, an awesome parrot and parakeet, a home--Yes--and even families, as annoying sometimes as they were: sisters, cousins, a wise old auntie, my dear Mother and Father.  I had trips, and a few gifts and houseplants, strength and stamina for hike after glorious hike....The mind-boggling Southwest with its geologic span of time and all the creatures living there: wild horses, ancient tortoises, mountain goats, chuckwallas, and those birds Oh My!   Neverending sunsets, shining blue mountains, sheets of wildflowers and palisades of earth in brilliant tones of red, violet, creme, orange, striated, ancient, with petroglphs and rock carvings.  Links to historic tribal paths, the swirling ancient ones; I could hear their murmurings in the deep velvet black and starry lit sky.   And quiet so intense I cried.
Magic fish in a transitory stream and bushes of flame and feathery wisps of wishes and golden dreams of yore for those were our last halcyon days together in our youth and our hearts, fingers, eyes, and souls as one, or three with our dear black and red dogs and we were a wildly spinning handholding secret language  world unto ourselves with comets, and moons, and suns, and stars.   And I have to keep remembering I once had a home, I once had a home,... and just like Dorothy,  I can click a few times in my mind and return home.

Trying for a Better Life

Hi All you no readers:  I have not gone public because I do not want all the assorted spammers, pervs, flakes and liars tying up my email. If there is another way to go public, later if I have found a new place to live, well...................    
     These are some of the people who have been responding to my post on craigslist for lower $ plus a partial trade, because I can no longer afford market rent now that school is out for summer:

1.   A trade and 300 to a single mom.  They decided I was too old.  2. A response for a trailer in exchange for  babysitting/entertain 3 preteen girls---   great!!!---At a nudist resort---Not Great!!  3. Well of course even tho my ad says no single men there have been at least ten single men willing to trade a room (in their no doubt great, huge, paid- for home) in exchange for a little whoring on my part.  This is very depressing.  4. A woman who smokes dope and wanted me to petsit her dogs while she goes on an internship to learn about medical marijuana in the Bay area---I think this was totally bogus, because I later got spam from her.  5. Caretaker to a rich couple with a custom built home overlooking the vast expanse of ocean---their dogs loved me, but I came in 4th ---or lower.
     I am sure I could go on---,  but for now in this evening I will watch Zorba the Greek ---Do not think I ever saw this classic which won a few Academy awards.   Last night I saw the two astounding actors Jon Voight and Dustin Hoffman in Midnight Cowboy....A real classic....with a homeless theme.......Bye 4 now-----
      WAYFARING SUB